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waking up this morning, the universe has felt totally aligned for me.

my body moved as I needed it to move. my heart felt and still feels whole. by 5 AM, I was on my ayurvedic journey. i had done my loving-kindness meditation, drank a cup of fenugreek tea, and now I am drinking holy basil tea.

it’s only 6:22 AM and I feel ALIVE, beautiful, and centered. everything feels balanced. WOW!

i have already journaled, and now I am writing a short blog.

sure there are bills that I am struggling to pay, weight that I need to lose for my health/back, and family challenges. there are also amazing and inspiring friends, a snoring pup at my feet, and a job that I can’t wait to get to today.

there are also paint brushes that need to be used, books that are being read, and a world to explore.

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courtesey of terri st. cloud of bone sigh arts at: http://bit.ly/2tzcBxD

perhaps best of all was opening up my morning email from terri st. cloud of bone sigh arts to see this amazing prose and picture. I love terri’s work, it always shows up at the perfect time!

each and every word here speaks of my soul; my entire being is reverberating with a rhythm that reminds me that:

I am alive.

I am thriving.

I have arrived to this exquisite time.

synchronicity abounds.

 

ps: confirmation that I really am a writer came when someone ‘liked’ a blog and then became a follower. when I went to the specific blog (http://bit.ly/2uSVhry) that was ‘liked’, I found that it resonated with me too. and then WordPress asked me for feedback about their blog platform. I am not sure if they will respond to my feedback, but I hope so. I so want to grow THIS blog!

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Sacred Vessel

“it was when she dipped deep inside,
and scooped out her very essence –
and then stretched her arms outwards
with her hands full of stars –
it was when those stars passed thru
her fingers and out to the world –
it was then she understood she was a sacred vessel.
that we are all sacred vessels –
with the entire universe flowing thru us –
and all we need to do is open and be.”
© Terri St. Cloudfrom https://www.bonesigharts.com/store/sacred-vessel

https://www.bonesigharts.com/store/sacred-vessel

Rewritten to honor where I am at this moment. A week off is leading to some empowering realizations and growth:

Moving Forward:
The treasured time between now and later.
Days, hours, minutes, pass. . . .each moment brings me closer to finding balance.
This is my opportunity to do a cheshbon hanefesh, an accounting of my soul.

I will never experience this passage of time again. While I am in awe of how I emerged with the love and devotion of many throughout every step of my life; I am also aware of how much I have learned to renegotiate life whenever needed. Thriving is a non-negotiable, yet I am, like each of us, navigating the gifts and challenges that have been part of my life; I am also celebrating how the tides turn and  the many ripples soothe my core at any given moment.

Now comes the holy work of grounding myself. Finding a new rhythm, processing the experiences of the last years. I am creating a my spiritual space in Houston and more importantly within my nefesh, my soul.  The work can be a little overwhelming, but incredibly sacred too.

Over the last year, I have felt like I was standing in quicksand on more than one occasion. And yet, I never went down. While the trek taught me a ton, it has also been hard at times. And yet, I stretched and I grew. . . how beautiful is that!

I love that I always find good within the challenges; I love that I find beauty in nearly every chapter of life. And yet, there is a cost.  As someone who is profoundly intense, I struggle to shut down and simply free my mind of all thoughts. Instead I actively engage in life by consciously going inward, reflecting, and healing; I also do what I can to make the world a better place by caring and loving others.

What does Moving Forward look like? I seem to be in a quieter place allowing for the silence to penetrate my being. Taking time to connect with people that want to see my soul; reading writings that touch my core; and writing from the deepest parts of my heart.

My body, my mind, and my soul is reaching for the stars, clearing the fog, and striving to settle into a new rhythm.

Emerging
Thriving, reaching, living
Becoming the woman I was always meant to be.
I am making it!

Inside and out – I am trusting each step as I reflect where I’ve been, where I am, and where I am going.

Onward – now & always,
Chava

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Boise River which flows through Treasure Valley - Dianne Hoff

Sunrise ove the Boise River which flows through Treasure Valley Courtesy of Dianne Hoff

Darkness turns to light
Night turns to day
Time moves forward

Life is what it is
Nothing stops
Cycles continue

Pain evolves
Peace rolls forwards and backwards
My spirit survives and often thrives

Needing the light of day
Treasuring the natural cocoon of night
Metaphorically surrounded regardless of time

Always. . . .

~ ~ ~ ~ ~

The gift of prayer is it often gives my feelings a voice and leads to balance.

There are so many connotations about darkness and light, night and day. And yet the flow or cycle helps to strengthen our connection to all life forces.

(Note: This piece was inspired by Ma’ariv Aravim, from my evening prayers.)

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Time has always been a challenge.  Finding time. . . .Taking time. . . .Creating time. . . .

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Yet time is our gift.  Taking time to do what you love. . . . . Using your time so that you can make a difference. . . . . .Finding beauty within the time that you do have.

While I have been overwhelmed by how time has seemingly evolved over the past week, I am also feeling a moment of intense gratitude.  This week has also been full of amazing gifts that would not have been possible if I had no time.

  1. Completing many tasks at work (of course, there is more to do.)
  2. Writing
  3. Hanging with my kids
  4. Watching my kids navigate life
  5. Missing what I can’t have, but learning to accept what is
  6. Finding time to write in my favorite place, Cafe Passe
  7. Staying up until 3:30 AM so that I could complete two mailings
  8. Eating dinner with an amazing couple that I have grown to love
  9. Freezing as I walked my dog
  10. Opening a package from our favorite store in the world, Milky Wave Tie Dye
  11. Breathing deeply
  12. Whistling, chanting, thinking. . .
  13. Fighting illness and winning!
  14. Teaching an amazing adult education class on liturgy
  15. Feeling anxiety when I dealing with hard stuff
  16. Working until I can’t keep my eyes open
  17. Making new friends
  18. Creating (in my head) new classes I want to teach
  19. Smiling, dreaming, being. . . .
  20. Coming home too hungry to cook and finding my son has already cooked dinner for our family
  21. Feeling my other son gently take my computer from my lap so he could guide me to my bed
  22. Living

Without time, none of this would happen.  When you have time; you have life.

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Day 2 – June 23, 2012

“It is good to have an end to journey toward, but it is the journey that matters in the end.”  ~Ursula K. Le Guin

Heading to the Tucson is synonymous (for Aryeh) to heading to the f*cking desert.  With that in mind, my friend Laurie Siegel posted on Facebook, “You’re Jews. You’re going to the desert. It’s a a natural thing. Maybe you’ll find manna there…..”  So with that in mind, we are now in search of more gifts and knives; each step of this trek and becoming connected to Temple Emanu-El has been an example of basheret (it is meant to be).  I love how Laurie gave us yet another new insight for this journey!

Last night is a bit of a blur because we got into the room and I crashed hard!!!  Our day ended up both fairly good and fairly grueling too; it isn’t easy to keep driving for days on end without really chilling.  My hope is today will be an easy day with a little fun in Memphis and an early night.  We aren’t going to make much ground and I need to be good with that!

What’s fascinating about this trek is that we are meeting kind people wherever we go.  Everyone has a story that they want to share; fortunately our family likes to listen.  After one such conversation yesterday afternoon, the waitress gave me her email address and Aryeh asked me why I don’t become a professional coach/therapist.  My response was simple, I love people; I love listening and giving people new tools for how they can engage in life.

One reality that has become obvious on this trek is that many people are born in an area, stay in that area, and never have or make the opportunity to leave what they know.  Of course, I know this on one level, but that has never been my world.  Even in my own family, there are those who still live within miles of where they grew up in a similar economic setting too.

Aryeh and Dovi have been fabulous troopers.  We have been laughing together and enjoying each other’s company.  We have had to navigate each others rhythms and moods with grace.  Mostly we have done a great job with brief moments of attitude in the mix.  Yesterday, we found a dive of a location with a fabulous knife shop and later we found Dovi a bookstore and an ice cream shop too!  Dovi has read 3 books in two days and needed a new fantasy series, so we purchased three books of a new series.  Wondering how long it will take for him finish these books.

Each day of our trek, we are keeping a journal with notes of what stands out.  Yesterday’s realizations include:

  1. Each of us love meeting strangers who quickly become friends.  At Cracker Barrel, two waitresses and the manager kept hanging out at our table while we spoke of everything from the area, to sick parents, health challenges, unwed motherhood, and life.
  2. Chava’s love of finding cool names for roads continues.  Yesterday’s finds include Lovers Lane, Rural Retreat, and Butter Milk Road.  Each name has a story I am sure.
  3. Dovi can be relentless when it comes to finding ice cream or a bookstore.  Wow….who knew he was so tenacious about getting what he wants. 😉
  4.  Aryeh may plan to get one new knife on a road trip, but sometimes three call his name. 🙂  Aryeh decided that knives are neither space or stuff. (Chava thinks that is wishful thinking.)
  5. Time change is  worthy of a great argument.  Dovi wanted to honor the old time while Chava had already moved forward (or should I say backward).  And Aryeh couldn’t figure out how to write the correct time in our journal.
  6. Chava remembers more country music than she thought;  either that or the words/tunes of the new music is just like the old music.
  7. We really do need to stop driving by 8 or 8:30, we were all wiped when we ended up at a retro-cheesy Motel 6 in Dickson Tennessee.

Today we head to Memphis.  We are hoping to hang out on Beale Street, The Rock and Soul Museum, and find kosher meat for Aryeh too!

All is good in the world.

L’Chayim

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