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Listening To My Body: Allowing it to Heal

This week I got slam-dunked with a virus.  In truth, I know that illness came to me not because I stood near someone with a virus, but because I needed to have some time to sort out my feelings and heal from all that has been going on in the last few months.  And perhaps, I got sick because I needed to just stop moving for a little while and rest.

Yesterday, I don’t think I left my bed for more than 20 minutes, maybe even less.  As my fever remained a solid 101+ degrees (I normally run about 97.1), I was fairly miserable and I physically could not move.  Today, my body’s temperature seemed to be quite normal, but my body wasn’t buying it.  Today’s activities included showering, laying down, going to the chiropractor, laying down, taking Maddie on a short walk, laying down. Each activity took no more than 15 – 30 minutes, each nap or resting took about 2 hours. . . .and I am still wiped.

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My body is telling me something. It is telling me to stop and frankly it isn’t giving me a choice.  Even if I wanted to go for a long walk or to work, I couldn’t do it.  Even my time on Facebook or blogging has had to be short, I simply do not have the energy or ability to do much more than rest.  And in truth I fear the results of me ignoring my body.  I fear serious illness.  So, while I can’t afford to refrain from working now that I am paid hourly; I also can’t afford to wipe myself out.

This week, I needed some time to process all that has been going on in my world and to make some decisions about how I will proceed professionally and emotionally.  My body is making sure I listen to my need to process by not allowing me the opportunity to move.  The last 7 months have been hard, really hard.  In fact much of the past several years have been a struggle.  I have never focused on the challenging times or allowed them to control how I walk in the world, but that doesn’t mean all has been ok.

There is a plus side to all of this.  In this moment, I am feeling optimistic and clear; my life and my children’s lives will be good.  Whatever we do, wherever we go, life will be good.

While I believe I will go to work tomorrow, my guess is that I will be gone no more than 5 hours and then I will return to rest until I am ready to move again.  And for this weekend, I have already said no to working so that I can continue my healing journey.

This week’s virus has allowed me the time I needed to take a deep breath, stop, and listen to my body.

For next time, it is my hope that I remember to breathe, stop, and listen to my body before my body tells me it has no choice.

 

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Tonight we counted Day 25 of the Omer, which is 3 weeks and four days of the counting of the Omer. Today is referred to as Netzach sheh b’Netzach, endurance within endurance.

Endurance squared. . . .

Thriving is what we do.  We climb mountains.  We have marathons with our beloved work, our children, our interests.  Stopping doesn’t happen because there is always so much to do.

Endurance squared. . . .

What would our worlds look like if we truly stopped?  I am not certain it would be pretty.  Yet we have to be honest with what our bodies and souls need.  Sometimes we can’t function without stopping to take a deep breathe.

 

 

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Endurance squared. . . .

May each of us have the ability to honor what we need to endure as we do what jazzes our soul and makes us feel truly at peace within our bodies.

 

 

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The human body was designed to walk, run, or stop; it wasn’t built for coasting.

-Cullen Hightower

How are you choosing to walk through life? Actively or Passively? Are you engaging in life or disengaging by accepting the status quo?

As a Jewish Educator, a parent, a writer, and a human being, I wrestle with this each and every day.  Some days are better than others; some days I am stretching and reaching for for that which moves me.  When I am stagnant, nothing in my life flows; my life lacks purpose and productivity. With movement, I have more of a chance of finding balance in my journey.

The challenge for many of us comes from trusting ourselves to move at different rates depending on how we are at any given moment.  May each of us be blessed to keep moving, to keep growing, and to honor our true selves with each step.

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