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Connecting is what I do. I have grown to love that about myself. And yet, I have had the door slammed in my face. . .not once, not twice, but multiple times. I have had other doors close more gradually without intense pain.

To say that I am strong doesn’t really cover it, sometimes I move forward with ease and sometimes the pain has been known to stay with me – forever (at least to-date).

When doors close or sometimes feel like there closing, I struggle to breathe deeply. The pain is so very overwhelming and my heart feels the need to race. At first the tears feel like they will never stop falling and then the metaphoric tears continue to fall. Those tears create puddles around my soul and remind me that perhaps it is time to protect myself by building a moat.

While the moat may surround me, it won’t ever protect me fully. As long as I love and connect as I do, I will remain open to loving connections and profound losses.

May I be blessed to hold and be held in a fullness that nurtures my spirit and builds bridges that fortify my soul.

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Chava's Shadow 17January2016Silence is an answer.
While your love is deep
Your quiet resonates more deeply.

As vulnerability courses through my being
Your silence triggers the pain that rests just below the surface.
Distance is our reality and yet it hasn’t always been that way.

Trust evaporates when it isn’t contained.
Sometimes I need to be metaphorically held.
Stroked. Nurtured. Hugged.

A kind word
A sweet note
A present message

Sharing my vulnerability isn’t easy
Yet it is part of growing connections
I am not as strong as I thought I was
and maybe I never was.

Breathing in the truth. . .
Silence speaks louder than words. . . .
I’m listening.

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Tonight I fell. I totally wiped out while walking my dog Maddie.  No doubt tomorrow will bring some beautiful shades of blue/purple on my hands, my elbows and my knees.  And with the bruises come not only aches, but perspective.

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Over the years I have learned that I only hurt myself or break glasses/dishes when my mind is too full and I am not being fully present in my body.  While everything hurts tonight, I am also feeling blessed that there is nothing seriously wrong with me.  Tonight my body and mind received a message worthy of hearing loud and clear.

The time has come for me to focus on whatever task I am currently involved in doing.  The more present I am, the stronger my entire foundation is.  There is incredible beauty in Tucson’s night skies and the ground, while rocky in places, is really quite level.  Tomorrow morning, I might feel a little sore, but I will create the space to walk gently, enjoy the morning air, and take one step at time.

With light and blessings, Chava

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