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I love the water.

Watching water, swimming in water, hiking around water is always a profound experience.  Even falling out of my kayak after barely making it off the beach last November brought me joy.  The water soothes my soul; it always has.

In fact, the first thought that entered my mind when I opened my eyes this morning was that I love a good storm.  Over the course of the night Hurricane Irene or should I say Tropical Storm Irene moved me to a more peaceful place.  Don’t get me wrong, I know that this storm was capable of much destruction, but that wasn’t the case for me.  So I was able to relax to the rhythm of the rain and wind; I was able to take deep breaths and benefit from my time indoors.  Through listening to the pounding rain and soaring winds, I was able to silence my dark energy. The rain allowed me to do what I often do when I am in any body of water.  I treaded on land as I listened to the water and I worked through some of my inner turmoil.

Morning lifted my spirit and the storm faded too.

I’ve never been one to coast through any aspect of life.  Yet at this moment of my life I am more driven than I have ever been and that is both exciting and overwhelming.  That state of overwhelm has contributed to the darkness of the last couple of weeks.  During that time, I have been avoiding doing many of the tasks I need to accomplish instead of navigating the work that  jazzes me.  When I stopped doing the dance of life, I went into a dark place.  Navigating inaction doesn’t serve me well.  So I am now returning to life.

Every action generates a force of energy that returns to us in the like kind. What we sow is what we reap.
~ Deepak Chopra

I am someone who loves walking in the rain and feeling the rain beat down on my head. Both jumping in puddles and singing in the rain make up my happiest moments of my life; I also love walking along a beach and swimming in the water.  Perhaps I didn’t take enough time in the water or the rain this summer; and in response, I went to a dark space.

With so many passions to guide me, I can’t maneuver myself forward if I don’t nourish that what brings me joy at a core level.  So while I need to create:

  • a new non-profit agency for healing and transformation from childhood trauma.  (Do you want to help me name my organization? Let me know if you are up for a conference call.)
  1. business plan while incorporating the organization too.
  2. an advisory committee to help guide the organization.
  • an even better religious school than we had last year with more experiential learning taking place.
  • my book and my blogs too.
  • workshops that are part of my soul work.

And in the midst of all this creation, I need to actively engage in parenting and taking care of myself too.  I also need to live life with all the gifts and challenges.  Last week, we had to euthanize our puppy of 15 years. The love I felt for her runs deep; I am still mourning our loss today.  Mukseh was a gift, she came into our life at the least opportune moment, less than 24 hours after we brought Dovi home.  We adopted two beings and brought them home within days of each other.  And she left us after her time on this earth was done.  Mukseh had stood by Aryeh, our son, as he navigated his own life threatening illness.  Over the nearly three years he struggled, Mukseh was always by his side.

Mukseh, our precious pup

Life happens; death happens.  The question is how do I (or we) walk through life’s journeys.  I have a choice; I always have a choice.  So today, I woke up knowing that I have work to do.  In order for me to be happy, I need to find balance.  There is always a lot to do; there are always friends going through their own darkness while others are celebrating life.  My job is to find balance and to allow myself the room to feel, to be silent, and to thrive through doing that, which moves me.

The dance of life incorporates many rhythms and movements.  But unless I allow myself the time to both actively engage in creativity, but also to find comfort in the silence between the beats, I will never succeed.  The time has come for me to continue whittling away at my dreams while also nourishing my soul through doing the things that renew me.  I should be chanting, davening, writing, painting, hiking, drumming, and playing near or in water.   Balance comes from both creating and from taking the time to replenish my essence.

I think it is time for me to enjoy the water.  Anyone want to join in the fun?

And if you really want to know what it means to work with your creativity and the reality of what life hands you, listen to Steve Jobs, who just stepped down as CEO of Apple Computer; he also is a co-founder of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios.  Drawing from some of the most pivotal points in his life, Steve Jobs urged graduates to pursue their dreams and see the opportunities in life’s setbacks — including death itself — at the university’s 114th Commencement on June 12, 2005.


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