Selfie Challenge: Day 14 – Sigh

Today is Day 14 of My Selfie Challenge. This is my time to look at how I walk in the world and to shake loose from some of the very things that bind my spirit.  And if I am going to be really truthful, it is my hope that as I take each photo, I will learn to be just a little happier with the person that I am. As a seeker, it is my time to find the beauty that is me.

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Feeling deeply and melancholy too.’

Needing to be authentic, so for now I will just show a selfie that shows only my moving feet; I feel like my spirit’s journey is best represented this way – there is a little too much darkness today. On a personal level, I am struggling. AND I am at a loss when I truly look at the world as it is in this moment. As I navigate the world within me and the world around me, I find myself continually asking how can I be enough? How can I do enough? Sigh.

I am grateful that tomorrow will be another day.

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Selfie Challenge: Day 4 – Exhausted & Grateful

Day 4 Selfie: 6 February 2018

Blessings happen when you least expect them. Today was no different.

Somehow I found the strength to push through an exhausted day. From the moment I woke up until this moment, I have felt exhaustion coursing through my veins. At the same time, I have been able to push through and even do my selfie challenge in the last possible minute. While it  may not be posted before midnight, it will be completed. 🙂

Now that is something to be proud of.

And then there are the connections I made today. Each time I feel the most disconnected, I am surprised by who shows up. . . .today was no different.

I am tired, too tired to elaborate, but I am really happy that today I pushed through my mood and then ultimately connected with people who want to help me with Door l’Door,-my new non-profit. AND I am also having awesome experiences with my work and friendship circles too.

Tired, but happy. . . .that’s a good place to be.

Sending love, light, & blessings. . . .

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Omer Reflections: My Journey Towards Wholeness – Day 8

Note: I will be Counting the Omer for a total of 49 days, from Passover to Shavuot or from Slavery to Freedom. For many, this is simply the Counting the Omer; for others, it is a tool for exploring the kabbalistic teachings in an organized way. For me, it is a time to actively reflect on my Journey Towards Wholeness. The more I am whole, the more free I will become.  [http://t.co/dBPYjDxSGj . . . .]

Photo Courtesy of Randall Miller:
Western Minnesota

So much has happened to me in my life. On a good day, I always push through without thinking about those who may have hurt me or those I may have hurt. And I remember what Anne Lamott says, “Sometimes this human stuff is slimy and pathetic…but better to feel it and talk about it and walk through it than to spend a lifetime being silently poisoned.”

Healing from the tough life experiences happens only by giving myself the time to feel the pain, to write about my experiences, and to sometimes share what has happened with those that are willing to listen. Since I am a work in progress, that means that I have to allow myself the time to heal. And I have to allow myself the space to let go.  While, pain may return for moments, I don’t have to let in own me.

Beauty happens when you realize how grateful you are to having had experiences that may have broken your heart, but also gave you wings to fly.  Not all the challenging things that have happened in your life have to leave you broken.  It fact, learning from life’s hard moments is a good way to grow.  For me, that is a non-negotiable.

So I have been hurt; sometimes by others and sometimes by my own actions.  I get to choose how I move forward.  With that in mind, my goal is to ALWAYS allow for healing.  Life is too precious to do otherwise.

With love, light, and blessings,
Chava

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