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Note: I will be Counting the Omer for a total of 49 days, from Passover to Shavuot or from Slavery to Freedom.  For many, this is simply the Counting the Omer; for me, it is a time to actively reflect on different middot (character traits) that will lead me to my own rebirth.

 

Honoring myself would be returning to this beautiful spot and realzing wherever I am is the 'congested area'.

Being alone is sometimes the gift we give ourselves.

 

Middah (character trait) focus:  honoring myself

 

“anything or anyone
that does not bring you alive
is too small for you.”
~ David Whyte (excerpt from Sweet Darkness)
from The House of Belonging

This has been a painful few years; I have lost beloved friends because one or both of us has decided that our connection isn’t healthy for one another.  Sometimes the sadness is overwhelming, but the reality is that life is too precious for doing that which doesn’t bring us to the place we want to be.

When I consider what a middah (character trait) is, I consider the attributes of what makes me a more whole person.  As long as I am honoring myself by surrounding myself with people that jazz my soul then life is good.  And while I may be sad to lose those I love, it is ok in the end.  The journey might hurt, but in truth why should we be with people that don’t jazz our soul and lift us to a better place.

May we all be blessed to find the people in our world that nurture our spirits and allow us to nurture their spirits too.  And remember sometimes being alone with ourselves is the doorway to honoring oneself.

With light and blessings, Chava

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Reflections:

While cleaning out my email inbox yesterday, I was blown away by the many connections I have.  I am loved, cared for, and blessed with many friends and loving souls in my life.

Each of my four personal email addresses has a different focus.  Initially, I am cleaning my writing email account.  With this address, I share my writing, save ideas, and foster new writing projects.  Trying to clean up this email address is tedious and time consuming; I never knew I had so many ideas that I saved, quotes that I collected, or dreams that I processed.  I really never knew.

I also never knew that most of my creative friends are quick to offer cooking ideas, beautiful songs, and sweet stories.  My creative/writing email is full of love, there are so many people in my life that give unselfishly of themselves.  At this moment, I am humbled that people nurture me as they do.  Writing in a vacuum isn’t possible.  When you share of your art, your writing, or your soul, people want to share of themselves too!!!

There are so many days, I feel alone in my little creative bubble.  What I learned last night is that while I may sometimes feel alone, there are many people that are there for me.  Patient individuals that are content to be a part of my life in any way that they can.  I am blessed to be surrounded by loving and thoughtful individuals that love me or care for me as the person I am; they value my creative energy and make sure I know that they are there.

Vikki's Class

Blessing flags represent what my friends give:
Love, Compassion, Loving-kindness, Peace,
Healing, Honor, & Justice

This fair-trade flag that can be purchased at http://fairtradejudaica.org/product/jewish-blessing-flags/; each flag represents what I found in my inbox last night. Every email was filled with so many of the blessings above.   My friends love not only me, but life and humankind too; they are generous people that walk gently in the world and give unselfishly.

Cleaning up my inboxes is proving to be more challenging than I expected.

The good news is that while I might not empty all 5,000 by next week, I now have approximately 200 less emails in my inbox than I did after yesterday morning’s purge.  Between yesterday morning and last night’s email purge/file experience, I am down a total of approximately 500 emails and 200 spams.  Yay!

Slowly, slowly – I am working towards my goal for less clutter in the email realm.

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Last night I drummed. I drummed from my soul.  I drummed hard for over an hour.  With each beat I found myself spiritually at a higher madrega (level).

I love my drum; I love to drum.  When I drum, my entire body and and mind leave all thoughts behind and all comes to peace for just a moment.  When I drum, the universe as we know it ceases to exist.  In that moment of letting go and being at one with my drum, I become a little more whole as a human being.

When I drum, I am a alone, but I am never lonely.  In fact, I seem to feel full of life; every nerve ending feels connected to something outside myself.

Last night, I was blown away at the end of my drumming when I realized that my younger son had kept his door open and the dog was curled up next to my foot which was holding the base of my djembe.  As I stopped playing, both my son Dovi and Maddy, our dog, expressed dissatisfaction that I was done.  My hands were sore because not only did I play with amazing intensity, but I was also breaking in a new head to my drum.  Both creatures  🙂 wanted me to keep on beating my drum.

Drumming rocks my world and keeps my heart beating; drumming keeps me in touch with what’s important.  Drumming puts a smile on my face or allows me to leave reality behind for just a moment.  There is nothing professional about my drumming; I just love doing it.

May each  of us take time to find our rhythm, to find something that allows us the space to let go, to be free.

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