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I want to be seen. I want to be heard. I want to be known.
My guess is that most of us feel the same way.
Relationships can be a gift and a challenge. In truth, they are always evolving. . .isn’t everything? When things are good, we are able to coast together with our loved ones, but we don’t always navigate from the same foundation as our lovers and/or friends.
A year ago, my heart was broken by a man I adored. We weren’t partners, but the intensity of our nearly 8.5 year connection dramatically changed leaving me profoundly sad. So far we have found a way to maintain our friendship. For me this was actually not a given, I was too sad for that. Today I am feeling grateful, although it has also been just over a year since I have seen him. I am wondering how it will go if and when we cross paths again.
Given time, healing happens. Hearts mend. Cleansing tears dry. Insight emerges. And moving forward becomes a reality.
While I may miss him deeply, it’s not necessarily the way one would think. It may not even be the way I thought it would be. Metaphorically speaking, I miss his touch and his caress. I miss the intense connection that always felt magnetic.
Our connection was always profound to me – in multifaceted ways. I miss being able to share my soul and the deep connection when he shared his.
Perhaps what I miss most is talking to someone that really  connects with me & craves our connection too.
I miss the friendship of someone who wants to:
Know me
Hear me
See me
Feeling grateful for the light bulb moment that somehow brought me new insights & some new cleansing tears one year after my heart was broken.
I got this and I always have!
Onward with love, light, & blessings,
Chava
broken hearted
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The Way It Is

There’s a thread you follow. It goes among
things that change. But it doesn’t change.
People wonder about what you are pursuing.
You have to explain about the thread.
But it is hard for others to see.
While you hold it you can’t get lost.
Tragedies happen; people get hurt
or die; and you suffer and get old.
Nothing you do can stop time’s unfolding.
You don’t ever let go of the thread.

by William Stafford From Ask Me: 100 Essential Poems. 
Graywolf Press (January 7, 2014).

As a little girl, my father would cup both of his hands over my ears and say, “Listen to the quiet.” Each and every time he did this a calmness washed over my spirit. While my father has been gone for 17.5 years, I have never forgotten that sensation or released my longing to ‘listen to the quiet’.

Over the last several years, I have become aware that I am navigating a life with many moving parts; I often find myself overwhelmed and struggling how to get my to do list done and show up for life in a healthy way. As a seeker, this has invited me to find options for how to best nurture my spirit and to literally practice being me.

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Making Artist’s Cards is only one of my daily practices. 

The great news is that creating and doing practices comes naturally to me. While some of them could have been considered detrimental in my youth or for moments in time, today they tend to be quite beautiful and grounding. I am the person I am because I take significant time to ‘listen to the quiet’ and to honor my needs.

Making conscious choices for how I spend my time has truly made it possible for me to process the darkness that has been known to blanket my being. I feel deeply and love unabashedly. My heart has been shattered by those I should have been able to trust and by those that have loved me differently then I have wanted. I don’t tend to do well with a broken heart; my entire being seems to hold that feeling unable to emerge with ease.

While this truth is painful for me, the awareness has lead me to engage in healing practices. In the last eight months or so, I have found a new rhythm that includes new rituals or what I prefer to call daily practices. They have empowered me to move forward and to better embrace self-care. Yes, I feel the wounds of my broken heart and spirit, but they don’t devastate me. I am choosing to live within my truth. I am practicing being me!

I love how I walk through the world and how on a good day I radiate light. Yes there is sadness, but it is what it is. What matters is how I move forward and that I always choose to move forward. Creating practices has literally saved my life; it has given me tools to cope and made me stronger for living with all the moving parts of my life.

I am able to thrive because of what I do to take care of my body, my mind, and my soul. Here are some of my daily rituals/practices:

Morning Rituals:

  1. Make my bed
  2. Drink water:
    • two cups – usually room temperature
    • with apple cider vinegar
    • with fenugreek seeds
    • with spices (aryuvedic )
  3. Peel and eat 12 raw almonds with local honey (Peeling raw almonds that have been soaking in water is a real meditative treat.)

Daily practices

  1. Journaling – My daily check in helps me negotiate whatever is weighing on my spirit. Only through journaling can I really find out what I think and what I feel, what I need and what will help me to better function.
  2. Reading books – Right now I am working on four:
    • Becoming by Michelle Obama
    • Practice Me  by Elena Brower (This inspired me to write this blog.)
    • Hands Free Life: 9 Habits for Overcoming Distraction, Living Better, & Loving More by Rachel Macy Stafford AND
    • Diana, An Allegory of Awakening Herself by Martha Beck (This book just arrived and will be started tonight.)
  3. Making Artists cards using watercolor and words of empowerment
  4. Keeping the kitchen sink clean and clear

Regular Practices (4-5 times/week)

  1. Walking 10,000 + steps
  2. Listening to AMAZING podcasts while I walk
  3. Chanting/Prayer
  4. Deep breathing exercises and/or meditation

Developing Practices (I am always trying to make healthy choices, but I haven’t quite mastered the following, but I am fairly consistent :). . .)

  1. Yoga in the morning – I made it through one week, but felt really sore. . .tomorrow I start again.
  2. Nutritious smoothie
  3. Eating vegetables with every meal
  4. No sweets and almost no sugar

When I picked up the book Practice Me last week, I was blown away by how well I am doing it. I am living as authentically and constantly working on the non-negotiables in my life. And I am learning, always learning about how I can show up and live life more fully.

What practices do you do that make you a healthier you?

Onward with love, light, & blessings,
Chava

PS – Keep your eyes open for later today or tomorrow when I share my practices for nurturing our world.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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#ActivistCardsByChava 🦋 This story and Luke is an absolute treasure. May we all be good neighbors for all of humanity.

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Today is the “official” end of this 100 Day Project. In truth, I am not ready for this project to end. . .there is no ending to what I could put on my cards. So while I won’t use the first hashtag after today, I think you will continue to see #ActivistCardsByChava

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Over the last few days, I have been playing with so many options with what to use for Day 100. Even as I sat down at my table to do the last card, I could not find one word or phrase that would capture the power of what this project has come to mean to me.

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And then Aryeh, my older son, suggested that I use the word BREATHE which he knows is one of the words that I use to stay grounded or ground myself. Ironic because my breathing has been compromised for the last several weeks. And yet, this project has allowed my spirit to soar and given me so many opportunities to breathe new life into my soul. (I will blog more about this in the coming days.)

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For those of you that have been following. . .THANK YOU!

For those of you that have given me feedback. . .THANK YOU!!

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I didn’t know when I started this project, that this is only the beginning of a bigger project. With this in mind, I am looking for people to help me decide which cards and/or words on the cards resonate most with you. If you look at NeshamaWriter on Instagram, you can look at the cards with more ease. Feel free to PM me with your thoughts. . .I’d love to hear them. Also, if you have more saying ideas, I’d love them too! Thanks my friend Federico, I realize that this project may last forever.

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Onward with love, light, & so much gratitude,

Chava

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I have a dream. . .

May it be so for all!

Onward with love, light, & blessings,

Chava

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Each day we have to wake up and take one step and then another. Not every step is easy to take. . . some feel really wobbly, but still we keep moving beyond the awkwardness. We need to speak up, do what we can to make a difference, and show up even when showing up is hard.

We have to do everything we can not to let fear silence or paralyze us.

Onward with love, light, & blessings,

Chava

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Let’s meet in the field!

Onward with love, light, & blessings,

Chava

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