Note: I will be Counting the Omer for a total of 49 days, from Passover to Shavuot or from Slavery to Freedom. For many, this is simply the Counting the Omer; for me, it is a time to actively reflect on different middot (character traits) that will lead me to my own rebirth.
Middah (character trait) focus: Giving and Receiving with a full heart
Throughout life, I am someone who loves to give and be present for others, but who also struggles when it comes to receiving what my friends and loved ones want to offer. Yet sometimes I reach out like I did when I recently decided to post the following status line on Facebook:
Sundays are never easy these days. While I smile and choose not to sit in darkness, I still find it difficult to wrap up what originally brought me to Tucson. Two weeks from today, I will be doing my final wrap-ups and leaving what I had believed would be a great experience when I initially moved here two years ago. May the transition for Temple be a good one and may I land on my feet so that I can take care of my family and love what I am doing too!!
After recieving 41 likes and 32 comments of support, I was blown away by the love and care that was flowing and continues to flow. Every comment was filled with loving advice, hope, and encouragement. So even though I am trying to navigate the darkness that I feel around my upcoming job transition; I am also feeling incredibly supported as well as hopeful that the right door will open.
I am also acutely aware that as a human being it is my responsibility to not only receive support, but give it as well. My hope and prayer is that I am as giving as my friends. Sometimes help comes by listening as people navigate their lives, by doing what needs to be done when people need a hand, and sometimes I can pray or vision for people’s needs to be met.
A great illustration can be found in the artistic version of the tzadi, the Hebrew letter; When you look at my friend Jennifer Judelsohn’s work, you get get a sense that in order to be balanced, you should give and receive from your full heart.
In her book Songs of Creation: meditations on the sacred hebrew alphabet, Jennifer Judelsohn reminds those reflecting over her words and artwork that:
Tzadi commands us to open our hearts in service to others.
At the same time she also invites us to explore how we receive the gifts that come our way.
May we all be blessed to give and to receive with a full heart.
With light and blessings, Chava
PS- For more information on Jennifer Judelsohn’s book and her amazing work, please check out – http://www.soulworksstudio.com/Store.en.html#Songs_of_Creation