Archive for September, 2011

Sometimes it is time to lose what doesn’t serve you well.

The last year has been filled with dumping some extra weight that wasn’t really good for my health.  And with each lost inch and 60+ less pounds, I am healing my body, my mind, and my soul.

On a deeper level, I am letting go of some pain and anger, some loss and the need for artificial protection.  I am allowing the essence of my personality to shine while healing the darkness.  I am not hiding behind the cocoon of extra weight; I am facing my feelings and smiling more and more.  With tears in my eyes, I realize that I am alive. I am vibrant. I am becoming healthier with each passing day.

I am creating new norms while seeking a more sacred way of caring for myself.  In order to create new norms I have to create space for the new norms to surface.  One way to begin this journey was to stop buying the foods that aren’t good for me and then to prepare and eat healthy foods.   Exercise is still a challenge for me because I feel slow and uncoordinated, but I am biking and walking.   Moving every day is becoming my motto; eventually I will find a rhythm and exercise that works for me.

Over the last few weeks, I have realized that most of my clothing is doing nothing to enhance my physical appearance.  Last weekend, I went to a wedding and last minute I had to improvise with what I had with me.  The clothing I brought to wear was huge.  This past Friday night, I put on my favorite dress to realize that I resembled a sack of potatoes.  So the dress had to go, as did:

  • 3 thermal long sleeved shirts
  • 8 cotton turtle-neck shirts
  • 1 long sleeve t-shirt
  • 1 blazer
  • 1 camouflage paints (stolen from Aryeh 6 or so years ago)
  • 1 sweat pants
  • 2 jeans
  • 3 slacks
  • pjs
  • 3 Chefwear pants
  • 5 dresses
  • 2 skirts
  • 1 awesome flax pants/skirt
  • 4 blouses

This morning 4 bags of clothing got packed away and will go to Goodwill later today. Yay!!!

The hugest blessing of this journey is that I didn’t have to get too sick or have too much pain in order to find the light and to build a stronger me.  I am profoundly touched by how the journey is working for me and how much love and support I feel with each step.

May my essence continue to shine; may my body MOVE EVERY DAY and my soul continue to heal! I am working on losing everything I don’t need.

Now it is time to find new clothing and perhaps a love of shopping too.


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“The only journey is the one within.”  Rainer Maria Rilke

Our lives are filled with journeys.  Sometimes we move backwards; sometimes we move forwards.  In my experience, very few of us remain stagnant for too long.

With this in mind, I have come to believe in one core guiding principle.  Visualize what you want and ask for your loved ones and friends to do the same.  Believe in your vision and own it as you work towards your goals, your dreams, and your hopes.

Before I go to sleep at night and as I move through my day, I visualize what I want for not only myself, but for those I love.  When someone is going through personal challenges, I visualize the profound work that goes into moving forward and often see those people in a state of well being.

Over the years, I have also learned another core teaching.  Surround yourself with those you believe in and respect.   If that is the starting point, it is easy to visualize healing, new experiences, and an all-around healthy life.  When you start from the premise of a healthy connection, believing that people can succeed in what they need and want is easy.

Our intentions for good have the ability to take us far in this universe.  When we use those intentions to help our loved ones and ourselves, we can truly make a difference.  I have no idea how or why this works, but try it sometime.  You will see what I mean.

Life is full of challenges and gifts; the good news is that we get to decide how we walk through life.  While the outcome isn’t always good or easy, a positive disposition can empower you to new heights.

Each and every step our journeys can be sacred.  When we believe our desires to be good, when we believe that we can change a little piece of the world for good, those journeys become holy.  Believe in yourself and those in your world enough to work through the steps while utilizing visions and intentions.

Deepak Chopra says it beautifully:

“Every action generates a force of energy that returns to us in the like kind. What we sow is what we reap.”

Visioning is an action word.  What do you want? What do you want others to visualize for you?  What can you visualize for those in your life? Everyone can benefit from your visualizing with positive intentions, even yourself.

With blessings and light,


PS – I am currently creating an organization to create Retreats for Healing and Transformation from Childhood Trauma.  Join me in visualizing that this work can help many people to heal with the support of amazing healers and visionaries and that the organization can become fully self sustaining while compensating the healers to do their work.

“If you will it, it is no dream.” ~Theodor Herzl


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