There are few coincidences in life.
This morning, I woke up with a spring in my step. It didn’t matter that I am sick, what mattered is that I am being greeted by My Morning Pages.
For the last month, I have been finding my voice through what Julia Cameron refers to as Morning Pages. Each and every morning (ok, nearly every morning), I have woken up to write 3-6 pages of stream of consciousness writing. By writing first thing in the morning, I refrain from filtering my thoughts; instead I allow my thoughs to simply flow without editing each sentence before it hits the paper.
This morning felt a little different that previous mornings because I found myself literally celebrating the power of what my morning pages have done for me and how I have grown since I started writing them a month ago.
Here is the synopsis:
- One month ago, I started writing my morning pages – after many years away from this practice.
- Two weeks ago, I added the practice of ending my morning pages by asking myself questions about how I would move forward from whatever I was navigating during a specific day. And then I would pick a Hope card (from BoneSighArts.com) and an Angel Card. On most days, the card I pick allows me to soar while feeling more grounded.
- One week ago, I had the inner strength to let go of a friendship that had broken my spirit and shattered my heart. Somehow I found the grace to release the bond that had been holding tight for way too long.
- Since the beginning of writing my Morning Pages, I have been really sick three times. Through finding my authentic voice, I am finally being able to purge the toxicity that has been festering inside my body.
- On at least three different occasions, I have asked friends for what I need. And wow, I have felt so loved and supported.
- I am healing in ways I didn’t even know I needed to heal.
- Each morning, I start my day by drinking a couple of glasses of water and sometimes a smoothie. I love that I am nourishing my body at the same time I am nurturing my soul.
So while I have navigated some really hard stuff, I have also found a healthier place to live.
With each passing morning, I have found that I am taking better care of myself in more ways that via my writing. I have been painting furniture, cooking good food, taking longer walks more frequently, and chanting. I am also allowing myself to go inward more and accepting that I can’t talk to everyone, but I have been sending cards to my beloved friends.
Conscious reflection is adding so much more to my life. I am taking time to see the gifts and the challenges. And more often than not I am finding the gifts within the challenges.
There are many mornings, when I have started my Morning Pages with deep pain at the core of my being, but ended my writing time with a calm and peaceful heart. They are grounding me and allowing me to literally grow my roots and become spiritually stronger.
While it may seem that I am more raw or sick more often, in actuallity I am allowing myself to be more of what I am.
The chameleon in me has slowly stopped fitting in quite the same way; I have learned to say what I need and what I want. I have learned to share my deepest dreams, my hopes for the future, and my innermost thoughts.
Sometimes my thoughts and feelings are embraced and sometimes it is obvious that friends and community would rather I stop approaching the world with such an open heart. But what I have come to learn is that I am so much happier being transparent. I don’t have to walk alone and close my intensity off from the world.
One of the best parts of this transformation is that I am not sure that I need anyone’s approval now. Maybe I am only able to say that because I really do have several different pockets of friends that value me for the person I am. With that reality, I have come to a better place and I am having an easier time.
I love where I am now – professionally, spiritually, and personally. And I am a work in progress; I am a seeker. So I am constantly stretching, growing, and navigating new paths. And with each new path, I am surrounded by beloveds.
My Morning Pages journey has helped me to find more calmness and inner peace with who I am. I am living by the values that I so strongly believe. Confirmation came to me when I found these two wonderful saying in the last few days:
To tell the truth is to become beautiful, to begin
to love yourself,value yourself. And that’s
political, in the most profound way.
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and the universe listened.
Terri St. Cloud
There is a huge shift taking hold;. I am AWAKENING in every way.
Politically, I speak my mind.
Spiritually, I share my soul.
Consciously, I live my life.
I have found my voice and I now live in a world that I can be me – totally me.
How awesome is that?!?!?!
Now & Always,
Note: OK, I do bite my tongue when I find out someone likes Donald Trump or Binyamim Netanyahu because I have decided, for the most part, that anything I say would not penetrate their skull. If you like either of these two characters, chances are you are probably not part of my inner circle. So, why spend too much time trying to enlighten you. I don’t need to talk just to hear myself heard.